When I see couples with their love ones together,saw tis email.. tink it's v meaningful.. heehee.. well.. tink u tell him wad u feel lorz.. *although i'll react e same way as u - wun sae anything, mi no guts wan*
I envy, whenever people ask me what is love? Have I
ever met someone I love or do I ever experience true
love, I would say I have a true love once, and it goes
like this :-
I am just an ordinary guy in my early twenties, I am a
conservative and cautious person where love is
concern, I had a girlfriend who was about the same age
as me, everything was fine until this girl came into
my life...
let's call her Joey. Joey was an ordinary looking girl
and was a few years my junior. She was very lively,
cheerful and fun loving, the type of so called
"sunshine girl" that would be ideal girlfriend for
most guys but not me. I always look upon her as a very
shrew and easy girl because of her amiable character .
Beside I am already attached, why confused myself with
another girl who I think might have more than one
boyfriends with her all the time. So whenever I was
with her, I will distanced her mentally and
emotionally because I don't want to get myself burnt
by her.
Of course she was still good to me despite knowing I
am attached, I began to have this feeling that she
likes me, to think that I am actually in such a great
demand ! I began to feel proud with myself, physically
and mentally, boasting to my friends, although they
make no comments, I can tell from their eyes that they
were jealous, their heart filled with envy.
Joey would called me now and then and we would always
go out together ,actually I enjoy her company too,
what I can say was I treat it as a form of leisure. I
am very certain and told myself, she was only a friend
to me and nothing else just because I am attached and
she knew it ! If she is still fond of me, it can't be
help.
Although she never express to me her feeling before,
I just knew confidently that she likes me, hence I
often compare my girlfriend with her and criticized
her. To me I treat it as a comment and I don't think
she will feel bad, awful or embarrassed because she
don't seems to bother with my remarks at all and gave
me a silly wide grin instead. So she was unserious and
uninterested in what I say! Of course that certainly
convinced me she just treat me like one of her
boyfriends and I dare not put too much of my feelings
too. So life continues and this goes on and years
passed so quickly before we even realized.
Then one day, I realized that she hadn't called me for
weeks. I began to panic. What is there to panic?
You may ask, well, what I mean by panic is not I am
scared but I have the kind of fear that I am afraid I
will be losing her, every time I want to pick up the
phone, I just don't have the courage to call her,
perhaps it was my ego, she used to call me, and I was
in great demand, I can still have my girlfriend to
call thinking she was throwing tantrums at me, why
should I initiate. Why will she be angry when she
likes me in the first place? Better still, so I can
concentrate on my girlfriend, I convinced myself.
My ego stood me for about two months that I finally
melted down because somehow, deep inside I missed her,
maybe, something has happened to her that discontinued
her daily routine, persuading myself with valid
reasons to suppress my ego in order just to give her a
call.
The person who picks up the call was her mother,
"h..ellooo.."? I stumbled, fearing her mother knew who
I am.
"Yes, who are you looking for?" she reply in
mandarin".
"Joey please" I answered.
"Joey? She has gone abroad to further her studies one
month ago! Are you her friend? How come you don't
know?"
The news struck me. She didn't even bother to tell me
about her trip, I thought we were so closed and she
was fond of me all the while. Why did she leave
without a word?
"hello...?" came the voice from the other end that
interrupt my thought"
"yes, I am listening..." I replied.
"do you know someone by the name of Steve?"
"yes.....I...am." I stumbled once again.
" she left a letter for you the night before she set
off, can you come and collect? "
When I got the letter from her, it read,
Hi Steve, I did not tell you about my decision to
further my studies because I don't know what you treat
me as.
I afraid you will cause me to abandon my thought to
the States, wasting my parents hard earned money and
continue living a meaningless life as someone you have
been taken for granted.
It took me so long to make this decision because I
couldn't bear to leave you. But there is nothing much
more I can do to salvage the situation since you did
not make any effort.
The reason I did not tell you I am fond of you is
because I don't want to put you in a difficult
position understanding your present situation. But by
being so considerate is as good as killing myself, I
suffer all the grievance and anger in the end without
you realizing. You always give me this feeling that
you will leave me one day, and I hate to feel that
way.
Seeing couples together makes me so envious and
depresses my moral wondering who your mind is always
with. Words that you say hurts me yet I have to put a
strong front because I don't have anyone to fall back
on. What I want you to know is I am only just an
ordinary girl having normal feelings like others do.
Please spare a thought for me, I hope I am making a
right decision to stay away for a while, maybe if we
are fated to meet again someday, we will be together,
last of all, there is something I have always wanting
to say and have no courage, I hope that it is not too
late, " I still love you".
Take Care,
Joey
Upon reading that letter, I felt the sharp pain in my
heart, she makes me realized that I am fond of her all
this while, it was a fact that I refused to admit.
She was right, I have taken her for granted all this
while. She was a great person to be with actually, the
feeling with her was so different, it can't be found
in anyone, not even my girlfriend.
I shouldn't have treated her so distantly.
hao ren na zhuo ...Originally posted by sNicKeRdOodLe:Well, came across this problem recently.. i like this guy but dun dare tell him.. my fren's fren, let's call her Miss S.. oso like him.. she treat him v well & even told him tt she like him.. i even encouraged tt guy bout Miss S even though i like him.. wad should i do??![]()
if u dun try u never know the outcome.. ask him out, throw some hints, see how he reacts loh..Originally posted by sNicKeRdOodLe:Well, came across this problem recently.. i like this guy but dun dare tell him.. my fren's fren, let's call her Miss S.. oso like him.. she treat him v well & even told him tt she like him.. i even encouraged tt guy bout Miss S even though i like him.. wad should i do??![]()
dont dare to tell him? den why u want to "promote" Miss S also?Originally posted by sNicKeRdOodLe:Well, came across this problem recently.. i like this guy but dun dare tell him.. my fren's fren, let's call her Miss S.. oso like him.. she treat him v well & even told him tt she like him.. i even encouraged tt guy bout Miss S even though i like him.. wad should i do??![]()
u need to be happy with the person u love ...Originally posted by Lynette80:dont dare to tell him? den why u want to "promote" Miss S also?
mabbe try dropping hints.. hopes it help.. if not later u will regret ur choice later le...... so wat Miss S treat him very good? sure u can do tat if u love tat guy alot also.. rite?
Good Luck...
i always hear pple sae wat "u dun need to be together with the guy u love.. as long as he is happie den u will happie oso"
really meh?![]()
i agree oso lar... hahah muz be together with the one u love den u will be happy.. same rite?Originally posted by Transmission:u need to be happy with the person u love ...
human are selfish ....
hmm...at least that's what i feel
i dunno leh.. dun dare to tell him lor.. mayb nt fated lor..Originally posted by Lynette80:i agree oso lar... hahah muz be together with the one u love den u will be happy.. same rite?
not together how to be happie? sacrifice own happiness oso can be happie meh?
hmmm try to drop hints lor... if u 2 got fate but u never treasure, then the fate is of no use eitherOriginally posted by sNicKeRdOodLe:i dunno leh.. dun dare to tell him lor.. mayb nt fated lor..![]()
Hmm...how about the guy's gf..I think this is bad...If im joey, I wun even get so close with the guy, in case I fell for him cuz he is already attached!!Originally posted by strawberri:saw tis email.. tink it's v meaningful.. heehee.. well.. tink u tell him wad u feel lorz.. *although i'll react e same way as u - wun sae anything, mi no guts wan*heehee..if i were u.. i'll probably be like e Joey in e story..
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heehee.. aniway, it's juz a story.. well.. for eg, my guy frens have gf.. i oso wun contact 'em..mayb once in a blue moon msg ba.. other den tt.. wun even msg.. coz tink it's no gd to b too close wid tt guy.. e gf may nt b happie oso..Originally posted by *evanesence*:Hmm...how about the guy's gf..I think this is bad...If im joey, I wun even get so close with the guy, in case I fell for him cuz he is already attached!!
Im somebody's GF & thus, I see this whole situation from another perspective... I would be really hurt if my BF & another bit-ch did this to me....
yeah..but all i can say abt this story is "Serve steve & joey rite! and Steve's GF shld dump him at this moment so he wld have no1..." *sneer*Originally posted by strawberri:heehee.. aniway, it's juz a story.. well.. for eg, my guy frens have gf.. i oso wun contact 'em..mayb once in a blue moon msg ba.. other den tt.. wun even msg.. coz tink it's no gd to b too close wid tt guy.. e gf may nt b happie oso..![]()