still can, but sumtime l will be like so into them, cuz tok together, share stuffs until l forget my own principles..but to the end of the day..l will still noe the limits..cuz l noe frenz is frenz..but to the end...u are the one who hab to support urself and depend on urself..Originally posted by starblue:if u view them liddat, then are you still able to put in your effort in the friendship??
Maybe it was just a casual comment?Originally posted by starblue:so i told her also got include lunch. and she went:
har.... liddat a bit loogy leh.
/bitter smile
what was i supposed to think?
so long she never hear from me, and the first time she initiated a social exchange, it was for her birthday treat. am i a mere tool to be exploited to her?
with a very heavy heart, i ask myself:
do i still want this friend?
......Originally posted by starblue:in light of this topic, just felt like re-producing a mail i typed to a friend here:
yeah yeah, i know... i also very long never reply le... truth is, i dun feel like replying. i dun feel like having friends anymore.
yeah, i think i might be in my worst depression case ever. but you dun have to hear all that bitching. suffice to say that i am decidedly tired of waning friendships and insincere, unrepenting assholes.
but pray, dun let my moods dampen your holiday pleasures. cos although i say this is my Great Depression, i dun FEEL depressed as you probably understand it. i mean, i am still enjoying my hols, watching hilarious or heartwrenching korean dramas and awaiting the commencement of my honours project with a run-of-the-mill enthusiasm an average college student possesses. in fact, i reckon i'm holding up pretty well, considering the debilitating circumstances that surround and suffocate me.
but maybe i really need that long-overdued chocolate therapy soon. you know, just to help me grasp at the last coherent stream of my reality. (you realise that that last sentence can mean a lot, or precisely nothing at all). i wonder if that cocopox i had this morning could be counted towards a healthy induction of endorphins in my system. i supposed not, for i have had but 10 miserable "poxes" (i also wonder what possessed me to eat ONLY 10. perhaps in my keen desperation to do something totally unexpected by society, i was prompted to be creatively insane in the most mundane of chores.)
alas, i have done nothing but blabbed to you what i had initially intended to refrain from blabbing --- utter bullshit written in tedious prose, a product, i believe, of the devil's workshop.
but i assure you that i am as intact-minded as the next individual (unless, of cos, you picked my dad). and i will engage you in more light-hearted converse when the sun rises in my world again. until then, i wish you well.
X 2.Originally posted by BadzMaro:Yup.
U are right.
But , there are some brothers that are really brothers that will go thru hell n back for u. If u have faced situations and got out of it together , alive and in once piece , normally , friendship like that will never disappear. It will become stories u tell ur kids about that 'uncle' of thiers.
Now that is what i call a real brother~
Get more friends. Don't be so judgemental.Originally posted by starblue:wah seh... i didnt think anyone will have a dimmer view of friendships than me... but i think you're being very negative here leh...
dunno lah. personally, i still have one single best friend left. and i hope (with fingers crossed) then our friendship will last a lifetime lah... i mean, i really truly only have her left who i can still call a true friend.
haiz... when u only have one single person left who you treasure like hell, it gets scary sometimes.... you keep fearing that someday, that someone will also leave you, like all the others who had come and gone....![]()