Fairy Tales are just found in books
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Originally posted by starblue:o.O i didnt know bullying helpless cute gals is a type of sense of humor...
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Originally posted by alexkusu:hanor hanor..even i cant find it in my heart to bully helpless cute girls hanah hanah... you always conveniently forget the times when you did.
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told you le, you need to lower your pride and talk to some one. liek here but i get a feeling talking abotu it will be more comfortingOriginally posted by starblue:there are things i dun tell my friends. i dun wan to let them worry about me. guess i'm too used to being a pillar of constancy if not strength for the few friends i have. if i broke down in front of them, they will panic. lolz... i need a guy for..... surviving my future. -
wrong meh??Originally posted by hisoka:
helpless cute gal
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it's not about pride, seriously.... i just.... cant be weak in front of them. they wun understand.Originally posted by hisoka:told you le, you need to lower your pride and talk to some one. liek here but i get a feeling talking abotu it will be more comforting -
err... u can talk to me about ur problems... my lips are sealed immediately after thatOriginally posted by starblue:it's not about pride, seriously.... i just.... cant be weak in front of them. they wun understand. -
thanks for the concern.Originally posted by harryryan:err... u can talk to me about ur problems... my lips are sealed immediately after that
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my ex also had financial problemsOriginally posted by starblue:things are really farking up big time for me. first, i have 4 exams hanging over my head and i've only studied half way for one of them. the rest have to leave to saturday to study. second, there are two projects and oral presentations clawing away at me and is the main reason why i cant be studying for my exams until sat. and finally, the champion of it all, my dad.
now that one's a real bustard. his debtors went to church to chase him for the money. and it triggered a family meeting where all 3 of his brothers came to my house to reason with him. the main purpose of it was to convince him to shut down his business before incurring even more debts, or at least to fire that asshole of an employee whom mum feels will suck him dry and kill him and hang him out to dry. to both accounts, the farker refused. and he got the cheek to say that he will go to the loansharks if his brothers dun help him. my uncles shouted at him and made him promise he wun, but mum says he will do it if he said he will. so on top of all the study monsters i have to slay, i will now live in constant fear that one fine day i might be forced into.... the unthinkables. and you know what's farking hilarious? it's the fact that the whole extended family can see the doom that my family's sinking into, and the only way to stop it is to kill the farker.
my first brother has boycotted speaking to the asshole. as have i, a long time ago. i have seen, from the time he plunged into his farking business against all disapproval, that he is beyond reason. no amount of convincing or coersion will slap him out of his pride. my mum even got fed up with me once cos the farker complained to her that i am not paying respect to him. PUI!! respect my ass. i cant even call him "father" without the urge to stick a knife up his anus. for some time now, i have only been able to grunt out monosyllabic replies to his questions, like so:
farker: you going to school?
me: mmmm (but i'm going to the movies)
farker: how is your day, daughter?
me: fine (mentally snarling at the "daughter")
farker: why are you not speaking to me?
me: nothing (there, i've spoken to you)
farker: you know, you should take every opportunity to speak with me (hinting that he will not be around long) (and yes, he's really said that a couple of times. wad? does he expect me to grovel at his feet and ask pardon for not worshipping the ground he walks on?)
me: mmmm (walks off, rolling my eyes big time. this fucker's got an ego the size of the Andromeda galaxy. who would want to speak to him when nothing can get past that fucking thick pride of his? say until like i'm going to regret not talking to him.)
so there, my beautiful undergraduate life. one flowing with milk and honey. one where you can get a bf from school and go to lectures and tutorials and labs and movies and lunches with, and live happily ever after.
you know, i reckon i will not be around much longer. i have been as strong as i could, always picking up the pieces and wiping all the tears and snot and carrying on with life in front of my friends as though nothing big's happening. but now i see it. everytime my mask breaks down, i can only glue it up that far. i fear that one day, the pieces will become too small to piece up again. what will happen then? will it be Goodbye Cruel World? or will it be I Dont Farking Care Anymore?
i think i should get my ears pierced. and maybe my navel too. and i wanna highlight my hair. and the peer pressure to join my friends in their pubbing routine looks very enticing. i should get a guy and try some premarital (protected) sex sometimes too. maybe i'll take them two at a time, just to see how it's like. and ah... of cos... i think i might finally go over and ask for his phone number and chat him up. it's been a year and a half since i started crushing on him, afterall. and maybe i'll go get a new set of wardrobe. you know.... trying out tube tops, miniskirts.
yeah... i might wanna live my life upside down for once. you know, get a new perspective on life.
alright!!! now i'm going to get off my butt and go to the library and do some studying. it's a pity the world doesnt stop spinning when your life stops spinning.
and part-timed as model.
it's the most lucrative job as under-grad.
but unlike her, i don't think you're street-wise enough yet to handle the shady company.
might even get more than you bargain for.
don't wanna scare you with details.
i think you should get more tuition jobs and temp as relief teacher during sem breaks.
facilitate going NIE and solving your family's financial issues once and for all.
private sector is not as promising as our ruling party would have you believe.
getting into NIE quite competitive, try get honors -
if i do all that, i'll revert back to the life i had last year. it sends chills down the spine unlike wad you can imagine. i cannot bear to let myself live like last year.Originally posted by boy in blues:my ex also had financial problems
and part-timed as model.
it's the most lucrative job as under-grad.
but unlike her, i don't think you're street-wise enough yet to handle the shady company.
might even get more than you bargain for.
don't wanna scare you with details.
i think you should get more tuition jobs and temp as relief teacher during sem breaks.
facilitate going NIE and solving your family's financial issues once and for all.
private sector is not as promising as our ruling party would have you believe.
getting into NIE quite competitive, try get honors -
My fren did this when he was in ur shoes.... graduate... go out get a job.. move out n onli go back once or twice a month to give mum money.... about a year later he moved back when he no longer that pissed
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cant move out. i scared the next time i come back, mum's murdered.Originally posted by harryryan:My fren did this when he was in ur shoes.... graduate... go out get a job.. move out n onli go back once or twice a month to give mum money.... about a year later he moved back when he no longer that pissed -
so serious ah?Originally posted by starblue:cant move out. i scared the next time i come back, mum's murdered.
don't scare kor leh, blue-mei....
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helpless cute gal must be sayang-ed.Originally posted by starblue:o.O i didnt know bullying helpless cute gals is a type of sense of humor...
not bullied.
kor will now help blue-mei to find a
good husband to take care of you forever.
*digs inside pocket*
cannot find.....
give kor a smile can? -
That feeling must be really terrible, because it's like an anchor hung around your shoulders.Originally posted by starblue:cant move out. i scared the next time i come back, mum's murdered.
Try to keep your chin up and work hard towards your goal yeah.
Walk on and walk tall. -
Originally posted by starblue:cant move out. i scared the next time i come back, mum's murdered.
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The world does not revolve around you.
I see a sad case of a fallen angel.. lost and walking the path to the fiery depths of hell to join the ranks with Lucifer.. -
Originally posted by boy in blues:helpless cute gal must be sayang-ed.
not bullied.
kor will now help blue-mei to find a
good husband to take care of you forever.
*digs inside pocket*
cannot find..... give kor a smile can? 
can dun call me blue mei? i dun even know how old u are. -_-" -
i agreed there is something creepy in the way this guy talks...Originally posted by starblue: can dun call me blue mei? i dun even know how old u are. -_-"
somehow reading it does make my hair stand as well -
man.. who this Blue dude!Originally posted by rainee:i agreed there is something creepy in the way this guy talks...
somehow reading it does make my hair stand as well -
Starblue can be 16 for all I care.
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We don't bleddy care about what you care.Originally posted by iveco:Starblue can be 16 for all I care. -
we oso dun care whether u care or notOriginally posted by iveco:Starblue can be 16 for all I care. -
Originally posted by rainee:i agreed there is something creepy in the way this guy talks...
somehow reading it does make my hair stand as well
oh yeah?
not that overnight hair gel on your hair that's making it hair stand meh?
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why would i put hair gel on my hair?Originally posted by boy in blues:
oh yeah?
not that overnight hair gel on your hair that's making it hair stand meh?
haha...dun get so uptight la, i joking nia -
girls dun normally use gel i heard