i sit here and wonder is this for real or a dream...
the me and you, the you and me...
or could it be a nightmare that haunts me, because i want it to be real, but maybe it's not...
it's strange the way i can go so deep within my thoughts...
i get confused at times that i can't see due to the fog that penetrates my mind...
i seem to get lost along the way, and wonder why things have to be the way they are...
i feel things are unreal, and i could wake up, and realize it was all a dream or a nightmare...
i'm wedged at the moment between hell and the unknown...
will i ever grasp the reality of it all, and know for sure
if the past was real...
if the present is real...
if the future will hold anything at all for us...
are we trying to hold on to something for the mere fact that we both want to be wanted...
are we in fear of saying goodbye, because we both need to be needed...
can anything be made simple out of this twisted maze that we seem to be walking through...
the lies, the deceit, the tangled web that we seem to have spun for ourselves...
i know there will come a day when things will be resolved...
one way or another i know i will see what was and wasn't meant to be...
until that day comes to pass, i will just have to sit, and wonder...
i will just have to wait, and hope i can endure whatever comes my way...
i hope it turns out the way we want it to be for us, and that it wasn't or isn't a dream...
do you ever wonder...
(dedicated to *****8**)