Originally posted by MeOwSuSan:
Thank you very much on reply !!! I have choose you because of LOVE and I will not forget till now I till choose the same thing , thank you to you, I not good all but I try to work things out every min and very sec, today anf tomorrow, I am thank you for the chance, I learnt alot from you and i see alot, I am moving on with want I already choose, thank you for your reminder I will not forget every thing you give me!
THANK YOU DEAR !!!!
OUR STORY. WE STARTED OFF WITH AN ONS. IT WAS AN OUTING. WE WENT OFF TO NEWSROOM AFTER THAT. PRISCILLIA WAS THERE. BOCHAP. ONE MORE GUY WHICH I CAN'T REMEMBER WHO. DANCING AND DRINKING AND YOUR SEDUCTION. I ADMIT. I GAVE IN.
IT WAS AFTER KNOWING YOU MORE. YOUR FAMILY BACKGROUND. HOW YOU WERE ILL-TREATED BY YOUR MUM. HOW YOUR EX HUSBAND ABUSED YOU. HOW YOU ARE FIGHTING FOR THE RIGHTS OF YOUR CHILD. AND HOW MISERABLE LIFE WAS FOR YOU THAT YOU HAD TO TRY AND END IT WHICH MADE ME STAY WITH YOU.
AS MUCH AS THE DEEP SH|T YOU WERE IN BACK. YOU WERE MORE UNDERSTANDING. HUMBLE. SLOWLY I PICKED YOU UP IN YOUR LIFE. TAUGHT YOU HOW TO STRENGTHEN YOURSELF AND GROW STRONG. TODAY. YOU ARE STRONG INDEED. ALONG WITH THAT? PROUD. ARROGANT. SELFISH. BOOSTFUL. DEMANDING. YOU ARE NO LONGER WHOM YOU USED TO BE. A LITTLE DIFFERENCE, I COULD HAVE TOLERATED THAT. BUT YOU HAVE TOTALLY CHANGED. I HAVE ALREADY FORESEE THAT BY STAYING WITH YOU AND 'HELPING' YOU MORE, I WOULD ONLY MAKE YOU A 'MONSTER' IN TIME TO COME. PLEASE REMEMBER THAT I OFFERED MY HELP BECAUSE I LOVED WHO YOU WERE BACK THEN. AND YOU WERE AT THE DEPTH OF YOUR SH|T.
THOUGH I'VE ALREADY GUESSED AND FORESEEN MUCH, I NEVER REALLY WANTED TO GIVE UP ON OUR RELATIONSHIP. I DON'T BELIEVE IN GIVING UP LIKE THAT WITHOUT A FIGHT AND STRUGGLE. I'D ALREADY DISCUSSED WITH YOU OUR PROBLEMS, BUT YOU JUST PASSED THEM OFF AS NOTHING.
SORRY. BUT I REALLY CAN'T BEAR TO SEE ANOTHER 'MONSTER' WHICH I COULD BE CREATING. NOT TO MENTION DEALING WITH ONE. YOU KNOW MY PAST. I WON'T REPEAT THE HISTORY.
AND I REALLY DON'T WISH TO TAKE 'BLOWS' ON YOU. YOU ARE STRONG AND INDEPENDENT ENOUGH TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF NOW. THE MAIN REASON WHY I DIDN'T LEAVE YOU BACK THEN WAS BECAUSE YOU WERE STILL DOWN. I'VE ALREADY TOLD MY BUDDIES ABOUT IT. HOW MUCH I'VE ALREADY WANTED TO LEAVE YOU. THE DAYS I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU TO PICK YOURSELF UP, AT THE SAME TIME TO SEE IF YOU COULD NOT BE 'CORRUPTED' AS YOU PICKS YOURSELF UP. BUT YOUR 'NATURE'(?) CANNOT BE RESTRAINED. YOU'RE STILL CHANGING. HERE AGAIN, I'M JUST TELLING YOU AGAIN YOU DO HAVE A
CHOICE. THINGS THAT HAPPEN TO YOU IN LIFE. SOMETIMES YOU JUST CAN'T HELP IT. BUT WHO YOU WANNA BE. THAT IS THE TRUE QUESTION. YOU CAN CONTINUE IN YOUR WAYS. YOUR BELIEFS IF YOU WANT TO. BUT REALITY IS REALITY. YOU'LL STILL HAVE TO FACE IT ONE DAY. THIS IS MY
FINAL ADVICE FOR YOU. FOR WHATEVER WOULD BECOME OF YOU. NO LONGER BOTHERS ME.
NO LONGER IN LOVE. AND YOU. NO LONGER WEAK.
I JUST HOPE I CAN HAVE THE RIGHTS TO REFRAIN FROM HURTING ANYONE. BUT YOU KNOW ME. DON'T
TRY ME.
FOR THE REST OF WHOEVER COULD BE READING THIS. I KNOW IT'S ALWAYS ABOUT SETTLING IT IN PRIVATE. BUT THINGS HAD BEEN SAID AND WORDS HAVE BEEN TWISTED. SO LET'S PUT IT ALL IN BLACK AND WHITE HERE. NOTHING I WANNA HIDE. I CAN DO IT. I CAN ADMIT TO IT. IF YOU'RE NOT INTERESTED. PLS KINDLY TOLERATE AND IGNORE ME. IF YOU JUST WANNA KNOW. I'VE FINALLY DECIDED TO SPEAK UP.