18 Oct 2005....I delcared...........inde
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........................All along, I noe tis wld happen, is a matter of time. It's been a long time since we met, go out.
As e days goes by, my fear increase......fear of one day, it would came..........finally, dat day has arrive. But still I could nt take it.
It came true as wad I had predicted, nutting more, nutting less. But still, its too fresh, too raw, too new, too sudden.
To able to predict it is one matter, to face happening it is another matter. Althought the END result is e same, sorrows and sadness still fall upon..........
No matter Hw hard I try to change e outcome, I'm still unable to do it, mayb dat's life.........
Endless sms, endless call....to a place where where I thought I could call home, where I thought is where I belong, so familiar, so used to it.......yet signs were telling me otherwise......is more den wad it seems to be.......
Hidden beneath e surface, beyond wad one's mind could imagine.....e devil is workin at it....tings start 2 fall apart...too fast...too sudden for you to imagine.....
If 1 were to choose again, I will nt regret it....hopefully e end result would be different from nw, If I could turn back time, I will treasure every moment, take every possbile opportunites just to be close to her, to be with her, to be by her side, walk hand in hand....overcome n solve problems 2gether as we walk on.......
Unfortunately, I 'm nt God, I can't change e Past, I can't live life 1 more time, only 1 life one time! When it's over, it's over! No matter hw hard u try, hw hard u salvage.......its over......This is Nw...Tis is e present....
Sometime u can't control everything, it's beyond human control, when things happen, they happen 4 a reason, but still....its human emotion, feelings r involve, when it came to matters of e heart, lettin go was never easy and never will be....
At e end of tis episode, I'm still me, still e one whom I 'm known to....but is it still e same? It ist still me?
Internally and externally, wad impact have it does it have after e episode? Wad damage have it caused?
Well, I may have grown over e yrs, from a little child to a young biy, to where I am now. E older I became, e more fragile I felt when it came to dat matter....mayb I tink too much, mayb I make tings complicated...mayb I hav too much faith, too much confidence, feel too lax.....
When thgs go wrong, who can u blame? nobdy is a fault, nobdy is right, nobdy is wrong, fate did not bring u 2 2gather....mayb, dat is ur destiny.... -
huh?
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10 words summary can?
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*hugz*
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A young boi lik u will not understand de....u too naive...to innocentOriginally posted by laurence82:huh? -
thks.....jus wanna vent it all out.....bottled up make matter worse....let it all out....Originally posted by zodi:*hugz* -
ello uncle, i only one year younger than u...Originally posted by progene:A young boi lik u will not understand de....u too naive...to innocent
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go sleep man, its late, tommorow a new day...
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Is there any1 out there who can hear me....any1 out there who can see me...any1 out there who can feel wad I'm going thru.....
To many ppl, it jus time of commitment....dun hav..den den hav lor....yet to me...i treasure every moment....every sec of it is preious to me. I enjoy e process, looking foward to the a happy ending.......
but happy ending only exist in fairy tales, nt in real life......I noe, I will be back, but when?
How long it's gonna take tis time round? few eeks, few months, couples of yrs? Even I myself o nt noe...
Well, dat's jus life, I'm just a Human aft all, I may fall down n out...but will I able to start afresh again?
A new day, a new begining! Will it apply to me too? -
not unless u say something we can understand...
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Hmm... mayb...jus mayb...u will understan....even if u do...u r nt in my shoe...to be in e pic...n b out of e pic...is 2 different issue...e anglee n perspective u see, vuiew will nt be e same as wad I'm facing.....Originally posted by laurence82:ello uncle, i only one year younger than u...
Well.... -
kelian progene...patpat... a better day tmrw.. ming tian hui gen hao~
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of cos u will get over it, time is a greatest healer there ever is...now u mite feel like dying or watever, but after a while when you have met another wonderful person, all will be history
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okiesOriginally posted by progene:Hmm... mayb...jus mayb...u will understan....even if u do...u r nt in my shoe...to be in e pic...n b out of e pic...is 2 different issue...e anglee n perspective u see, vuiew will nt be e same as wad I'm facing.....
Well.... -
Too much thought....too much feelings, too much emotions....need a place 4 me 2 vent it out...need a space 4 me to let it go....Originally posted by laurence82:go sleep man, its late, tommorow a new day... -
i'm here....Originally posted by progene:thks.....jus wanna vent it all out.....bottled up make matter worse....let it all out....
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Pickin up bits n pieces wld never b easy n fast....nevertheless I will try......by hook or by crook, I will have to....
Fran may gif me saport, may encourage me...telling me all those wonderful stuff dat will gonna happen in e future.....always look on e bright side of life....
But, b4 I can do dat, I mus leave e dark side....to get bac to e side where i belong...where I sed to be....
E most painful wound u can hav in life is not any terminal diease, not Cancer, nt heart-attack ....is to hav a broken heart....no1 could heal it...not doctors, nor medcine..............perhaps jus liquior...but dat is onli temporary....aft u r sober...e wound get worse...e pain get worse
Encouragment, sapport from familes, from frans can onli take u to a certain level....e rest is up to u...whether to take a extra step to a road of recovery...or stay enternally in a place of self-condementation.............. -
thks 4 ur concern n care...Originally posted by BabyLover:kelian progene...patpat... a better day tmrw.. ming tian hui gen hao~ -
Yes...time is e ultimate healer of all.....but scars will remain 4ever.... even though it's completely heal...it may look ok on e surface...but withinn it...it alread hav a side effect, a chain reaction dat is being planted when e wound was 1st formed.......Originally posted by rainee:of cos u will get over it, time is a greatest healer there ever is...now u mite feel like dying or watever, but after a while when you have met another wonderful person, all will be history
E root of e problem were never b solved unless memories can b erased.....or u have amnesia....totally 4gotten abt e unhappiness, sadness, pain
Till Den...den u are 100% complete......recover...a new man...wif a new begining...with e history of e past, no burden, no scar....
It's fate dat bring 2 unknown ppl 2gather....out of e millions possbilities...u met her, n she met u....both heart cross one another'spath....shoudn't it b tis way....
But fate is cruel...to seperate, destory wad it has created.......if I were to known tis wld happen, I should hav met her in e 1st place...fate shouldn't have intro me to her...... -
thks anywa...for being here.....being wif me...in cyber...it matters to me much...Originally posted by laurence82:okies -
thks a lot...really appreciate...Originally posted by zodi:i'm here....
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ah gene.. u will one much better than she is, someone just right for u...
dun give up hope...
in teh mean time, just sit back n relax -
hMz.......although i dunno what tok u.........but must be related to char bor one de bah????Originally posted by progene:........................All along, I noe tis wld happen, is a matter of time. It's been a long time since we met, go out.
As e days goes by, my fear increase......fear of one day, it would came..........finally, dat day has arrive. But still I could nt take it.
It came true as wad I had predicted, nutting more, nutting less. But still, its too fresh, too raw, too new, too sudden.
To able to predict it is one matter, to face happening it is another matter. Althought the END result is e same, sorrows and sadness still fall upon..........
No matter Hw hard I try to change e outcome, I'm still unable to do it, mayb dat's life.........
Endless sms, endless call....to a place where where I thought I could call home, where I thought is where I belong, so familiar, so used to it.......yet signs were telling me otherwise......is more den wad it seems to be.......
Hidden beneath e surface, beyond wad one's mind could imagine.....e devil is workin at it....tings start 2 fall apart...too fast...too sudden for you to imagine.....
If 1 were to choose again, I will nt regret it....hopefully e end result would be different from nw, If I could turn back time, I will treasure every moment, take every possbile opportunites just to be close to her, to be with her, to be by her side, walk hand in hand....overcome n solve problems 2gether as we walk on.......
Unfortunately, I 'm nt God, I can't change e Past, I can't live life 1 more time, only 1 life one time! When it's over, it's over! No matter hw hard u try, hw hard u salvage.......its over......This is Nw...Tis is e present....
Sometime u can't control everything, it's beyond human control, when things happen, they happen 4 a reason, but still....its human emotion, feelings r involve, when it came to matters of e heart, lettin go was never easy and never will be....
At e end of tis episode, I'm still me, still e one whom I 'm known to....but is it still e same? It ist still me?
Internally and externally, wad impact have it does it have after e episode? Wad damage have it caused?
Well, I may have grown over e yrs, from a little child to a young biy, to where I am now. E older I became, e more fragile I felt when it came to dat matter....mayb I tink too much, mayb I make tings complicated...mayb I hav too much faith, too much confidence, feel too lax.....
When thgs go wrong, who can u blame? nobdy is a fault, nobdy is right, nobdy is wrong, fate did not bring u 2 2gather....mayb, dat is ur destiny....
Long time no meet also liaoz.........will be busy this week becoz my exam's drawing near liaoz.......maybe next week we come out la kopi and maybe you can tell me more.... -
bo jio!
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i haben confirm whether i going or not, how to jio u....ai si ah??!?!!!!Originally posted by laurence82:bo jio!