MooKu's Diary
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thank you...Originally posted by weidev:yo pal... follow ur dreams...
no matter which course u take... ur friends here in sgforums... will stand behind u all the way...
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i tot u knew... cos wat r friends for right?Originally posted by MooKu:thank you... really nice to know that.. -
It's really nice lar.Originally posted by weidev:i tot u knew... cos wat r friends for right?
Most of my friends are the sort who, you know, will look at you with THOSE EYES when you declare you're not going to university but going to do something else..
it gets pretty discouraging sometimes.. -
usuallt those r typical singaporeans... get cert then work juz to survive... no ambition... seriously at least u have interest in music... i so sad... no interest...Originally posted by MooKu:It's really nice lar.
Most of my friends are the sort who, you know, will look at you with THOSE EYES when you declare you're not going to university but going to do something else.. it gets pretty discouraging sometimes.. -
I'm sure you'll find your interest one day!Originally posted by weidev:usuallt those r typical singaporeans... get cert then work juz to survive... no ambition... seriously at least u have interest in music... i so sad... no interest... Or maybe you already have one, just that you haven't discovered it 
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ya lor... i like to eat sleep and play ps2... but i don get paid for tat... haiz...Originally posted by MooKu:I'm sure you'll find your interest one day! Or maybe you already have one, just that you haven't discovered it 
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Originally posted by weidev:ya lor... i like to eat sleep and play ps2... but i don get paid for tat... haiz...
r u taking hospi in tp? -
no... engineering...Originally posted by MooKu: r u taking hospi in tp? -
why youOriginally posted by weidev:no... engineering... -
cos i don like... but fate led me to this course... so i shall complete it...Originally posted by MooKu:why you -
fate...? hmmmm.Originally posted by weidev:cos i don like... but fate led me to this course... so i shall complete it...
hehe how many years more? 1 more? -
2... ARGH!!!!Originally posted by MooKu:fate...? hmmmm.
hehe how many years more? 1 more? 
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whoa relac ah buddy.Originally posted by weidev:2... ARGH!!!! -
Originally posted by MooKu:*sniff sniff* Don't know why today just feel so depressed.
I'm so stressed, every minute I'm thinking of the 'A' levels.
Last night, I messaged two friends to ask a question on a particular subject. Till now they haven't replied yet. Hello, please don't tell me "oh, I switched off my phone for the past few days because I've been studying!" Like the two of you will...
Luckily I changed my mind after SMS-ing them and called somebody instead. Phew.
When people get stressed, as in, in such a situation when the 'A's are coming, is it normally like this? I felt so hurt, like they don't care, or they care more about themselves [I have to study, no time to bother about your question.]? Or at least if you don't know the answer to my question, reply since it was clearly directed at YOU with your name.
That brings us to the question of SMS etiquette. The two friends mentioned above.. aren't the only two who don't reply at times. Sometimes, when SMSes are sent to some people, they don't reply at all! Like say, it's a question: What time does class start tomorrow? And if the receiver doesn't know the answer, he'll just ignore it. Alright who's guilty of that?!
I think we should just reply lah ok. Imagine the sender waiting and waiting... in vain.
Sigh. u poor thing. its oways more temptin 2 feel depressed when under stress. but its dangerous now dat u need to remain focused during this critical time. dun lose study momentum or morale. quite hard to regain, for me at least. try to be numb abit to depressing things. but dun be insensitiv to ur friens. -
gee thanks alot for your concern..Originally posted by boy in blues: u poor thing. its oways more temptin 2 feel depressed when under stress. but its dangerous now dat u need to remain focused during this critical time. dun lose study momentum or morale. quite hard to regain, for me at least. try to be numb abit to depressing things. but dun be insensitiv to ur friens.
my 'A' levels are over
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Dear Diary,
I thought I had finally let go of everything, and I thought I stopped letting thoughts of him affect me, but I was wrong.
Thoughts of him came into my mind again as one day, a friend and I were discussing about a certain outing and his name was mentioned.
We're gonna ask him along. Well er, not we, but my friend.
I know he's not going to come.. or at least I feel that way. I know him so well.. or did I?
I imagined him turning up for the outing.. I'm not sure if I want to see him again. Part of me desires to see him just once more, to see how he has been, whether he has lost weight or not, and whether he has changed for the better, and whether he has grown to be more mature or not. But another part of me.. thinks it'll be better for things to remain like the present. So what if we meet...?
I know he's the one, but I just can't bring myself to imagine anything other than this separation.. Maybe this is our destiny? -
Dear Diary,
Wavering, I'm wavering again.
Dreams... do they come with a price?
I'm at crossroads now, forced to make a decision between a dream and a reality.
If I were to pursue my dream, I don't know when I will achieve success. Furthermore, I lack the capital.
I cannot see my future ahead of me. It's all bleak...
If I were to pursue my dream, ultimately, will I be happy? Given all the sacrifices I have to make, and all the hardships I will have to go through, without seeing a sign to tell me I've come to a certain stage, will I be happy?
It's a long, long journey... I'm going to take it alone. Who will care, other than myself?
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Ah....dreams dreams....ambitions ambitions....I have them too. I guess to be happy, one has to learn how to be contented. I think I have learnt to be contented. I am a musician and sing in a band. We dream of making it big one day. I am now working as a sales executive doing client servicing. I like that because Marketing is the only thing i like during my studies. But i shared with my boss on the first day when she asked for our dreams, i said the only thing that will draw me away from working here is when a record company offers us a chance to record albums or i have a chance to tour with the band. Big dreams? Impossible? Well maybe. But that does not stop me from being chasing after it cos I still practice with my band and hope one day someone spots us. But then I am contented to be here right now because I know whats most important to me is still with me and that is God and my family. If i cant fulfil my dreams, so be it but i sure would want to! I know I will be happy cos I am contented. Cheers.Originally posted by MooKu:Dear Diary,
Wavering, I'm wavering again.
Dreams... do they come with a price?
I'm at crossroads now, forced to make a decision between a dream and a reality.
If I were to pursue my dream, I don't know when I will achieve success. Furthermore, I lack the capital.
I cannot see my future ahead of me. It's all bleak...
If I were to pursue my dream, ultimately, will I be happy? Given all the sacrifices I have to make, and all the hardships I will have to go through, without seeing a sign to tell me I've come to a certain stage, will I be happy?
It's a long, long journey... I'm going to take it alone. Who will care, other than myself?
Suddenly I think my life has no meaning.. for myself. -
Dear Diary,
I am becoming a Senior Member soon
Doesn't make a difference for now, since I'm currently a Cowabunga! -
Dear Diary,
What an anticlimax.
Exams officially ended today.
No special feeling leh. But I do feel released, as in, finally I can concentrate on my LIFE. I can have a LIFE! OMIGAWD! I CAN!
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Dear Diary,
Funny how it seems, one thing/person can mean the world to a person, but the person means nothing to that thing/person.
To each and every human being, the Earth is our world and we cannot do without it... but to the Earth, a single human being is a mere speck of dust on its lands.
To a dying plant, a drop of water is a ray of hope, a chance at life again... but to the drop of water... I don't know.
To the person who means the world to me, I doubt I even take up a space the size of a cell in his heart.
I have... been waiting for 4 years.
Maybe I'm just deluding myself. Maybe he doesn't mean that much to me. Maybe I thought he did because... he came as a light in my darkest moments. Maybe, maybe if I looked harder, I'll find someone to replace him?
I am tired tired tired. I don't want to think about him anymore but he just keeps appearing in my dreams and I can't control that. I thought I had let go of everything finally, after I kept away all that stuff - the photos, the present, and.... and the wallet I had been using for 4 years... but I was wrong.
I feel stupid, to wait for so many years for someone who doesn't remember, or doesn't want to remember.. or talk to... It's like waiting for a new planet we can all live on... It's a long wait that's futile in the short period of my life span...
I need help... thoughts of him just blind me to a way out, to a new beginning to something, but the help must come from myself... When?
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Dear Diary,
And did I mention... I lost the job at the school before it even started... to a rather unreasonable situation...
And suddenly, it seems like a part of my world has crumbled.
Perhaps it's just part and parcel of what I have to endure if I insist on taking this route...
Ahh let me dwell in misery for tonight... Just tonight. -
Dear Diary,
I hung up on my sis today
Couldn't stand her irresponsible ways and how she always puts her boyfriend first.
I mean, yah okay you borrowed the CD for some installation purposes.. but surely it doesn't take SO long? And the way my sis tried to evade it was so... Hello, where has your sense of individuality gone? Have you sold your soul to the stupid idiot?
And I cooked sweet potato soup today...
I still feel bloated... -
Who would have thought that a terror lived behind such a mild-mannered and introverted face...
Maybe all the anger and all the hate had been inside for too long, slowly growing into a maligant tumor that harms not only the bearer, but her surroundings... Like a volcano which has magma built up inside for too long, one day it will explode.
Like today.
What have I done?