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Well... alot of forumites ask why I chose xian89 as my nick. This is a essay abt it.Dun mind my spelling n grammer errors.
The Past - Day I see her
Xian was a juz an girl whom I meet during 1 of my camp. She was my junior, 3 years younger than mi. She was tall for her age - 1.75 n is rather bony. I remember tt was after dinner when we were having bq. I spot her sitting on the staircase n walk toward her to chit-chat. Strangely, tt become the gossip of the town.
xian
We were soon topics after that camp. Lots of my friends were toking abt our relationship It cause a bit of
when we were caught together. I remember those days when I use to call her "tik-ko(bamboo) xian N times when her friends n I always call her to eat more. ahh.. those were the days..
Sisters n brother
I have 2 godsisters back in secondary days. xian was 1 of them. She was the one who offer this bond so I agreed. My other god sister J, who also noe her, scold mi for why I din reject n ask her (xian)to b my gf. I answer, " We r just friends". I kana scolding from her.
J always complain I treat xian too well. N my answer is that J has some1 to care her - a bf. I even noe xian address n phone no b4 asking J. She is rather jealous wif xian. As a matter of fact, up to now, I believe it is juz infatuation. Being the only son in my family, I have no brother to care for nor talk to. The appearance of xian has unintentionally aroused my care n concern for her, as she face alot of family problems. I do admit that care n concern exceed what a good friend shd do, but tat's my own way of showing......
my first.....
I'm not someone who noe how to express myself that time. So too avoid furthur unnecessary gossip, I always pull my other sister or a big gang when I want to meet xian. Complain!Complain!Complain!. tat's what I receive from them.
The first gal that ever rode on my back is xian. the first girl I ever hold my hand is also her. And the most important is tt she was the first girl that made mi sleepless for 1 weekend juz because I worry tt she got wanked by her mother for being home late.(sound silly ritz). tt monday seems a drag n I purposely wait till her recess 1530 to check on her. Luckily she was alrite.
I once compose a poem while I think of our relationship.
Pei(1) ai(4) wen(2) jing(4) cheng(2) you(3) shu(1)
ji(1) yi(4) jun(1) ling(2) ruo(4) zu(4) xian(2)
shi(4) wen(4) tian(1) ya(2) zai(4) he(2) fang(1)
tian(1) ya(2) he(2) fang(1) he(2) chu(4) zao(3)
Though I admire xian n I may want to take care of her,
I could never see our future n happiness together.
Farewell
Maybe becoz of our special relationship, n I dun noe if she is avoiding mi, I never saw her in the nite on my farewell. She say she was not feeling well. My heart sian1/2 not seeing her. n after tat nite I hardly see her anymore.
Finale
I do meet her a few times now n then. But most of the time, I have to call her. She will NEVER call mi unless she need a favour from mi. e.g asking to buy NIE music concert tickets. Nowadays, I grew fed-up wif her n deleted her number from my hp. What left of her are those happy moments we spend together n her home address n home no which I can't forget.
N every time when the flags was hung for national day, I will always remember there is tat girl in my life whose bdae fall on national day.
~the end~ -
Haiz.. Yuan Lai, Yuan San..
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that's quite sad to hear. thanx for sharing the story. take care~!~
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thanks for ur console.Originally posted by Spear:Haiz.. Yuan Lai, Yuan San..
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Dun mention it. I'm a sucker at human relationship too.Originally posted by xian89:thanks for ur console.
And not to mention a block of wood, half-baked potato and silly goat as well... -
ok lah. she wasn't even my gf... Juz think of her when I am bored n say "sianz".... "sian" sound like "xian". The onli problem is tt I every day there seems to have something to make mi sian. So I keep thinking of her everyday.Originally posted by jOhO:that's quite sad to hear. thanx for sharing the story. take care~!~ 
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actually I heard from 1 episode of music diary saying tis:Originally posted by Spear:Dun mention it. I'm a sucker at human relationship too.
And not to mention a block of wood, half-baked potato and silly goat as well...
" If missing or loving someone has become ur daily routine/, then U shd let the person go. For as a matter of fact, U dun really love the person. it is juz a habit to wanting to own him/her." -
Originally posted by xian89:
eh... mind if i ask? is ur name weilun???...
Well... alot of forumites ask why I chose xian89 as my nick. This is a essay abt it.Dun mind my spelling n grammer errors.
[b]The Past - Day I see her
Xian was a juz an girl whom I meet during 1 of my camp. She was my junior, 3 years younger than mi. She was tall for her age - 1.75 n is rather bony. I remember tt was after dinner when we were having bq. I spot her sitting on the staircase n walk toward her to chit-chat. Strangely, tt become the gossip of the town.
xian
We were soon topics after that camp. Lots of my friends were toking abt our relationship It cause a bit of when we were caught together. I remember those days when I use to call her "tik-ko(bamboo) xian N times when her friends n I always call her to eat more. ahh.. those were the days..
Sisters n brother
I have 2 godsisters back in secondary days. xian was 1 of them. She was the one who offer this bond so I agreed. My other god sister J, who also noe her, scold mi for why I din reject n ask her (xian)to b my gf. I answer, " We r just friends". I kana scolding from her.
J always complain I treat xian too well. N my answer is that J has some1 to care her - a bf. I even noe xian address n phone no b4 asking J. She is rather jealous wif xian. As a matter of fact, up to now, I believe it is juz infatuation. Being the only son in my family, I have no brother to care for nor talk to. The appearance of xian has unintentionally aroused my care n concern for her, as she face alot of family problems. I do admit that care n concern exceed what a good friend shd do, but tat's my own way of showing......
my first.....
I'm not someone who noe how to express myself that time. So too avoid furthur unnecessary gossip, I always pull my other sister or a big gang when I want to meet xian. Complain!Complain!Complain!. tat's what I receive from them.
The first gal that ever rode on my back is xian. the first girl I ever hold my hand is also her. And the most important is tt she was the first girl that made mi sleepless for 1 weekend juz because I worry tt she got wanked by her mother for being home late.(sound silly ritz). tt monday seems a drag n I purposely wait till her recess 1530 to check on her. Luckily she was alrite.
I once compose a poem while I think of our relationship.
Pei(1) ai(4) wen(2) jing(4) cheng(2) you(3) shu(1)
ji(1) yi(4) jun(1) ling(2) ruo(4) zu(4) xian(2)
shi(4) wen(4) tian(1) ya(2) zai(4) he(2) fang(1)
tian(1) ya(2) he(2) fang(1) he(2) chu(4) zao(3)
Though I admire xian n I may want to take care of her,
I could never see our future n happiness together.
Farewell
Maybe becoz of our special relationship, n I dun noe if she is avoiding mi, I never saw her in the nite on my farewell. She say she was not feeling well. My heart sian1/2 not seeing her. n after tat nite I hardly see her anymore.
Finale
I do meet her a few times now n then. But most of the time, I have to call her. She will NEVER call mi unless she need a favour from mi. e.g asking to buy NIE music concert tickets. Nowadays, I grew fed-up wif her n deleted her number from my hp. What left of her are those happy moments we spend together n her home address n home no which I can't forget.
N every time when the flags was hung for national day, I will always remember there is tat girl in my life whose bdae fall on national day.
~the end~[/b] -
is weilun ur bf? think tis is the second time U ask mi liao.Originally posted by p0ppy:eh... mind if i ask? is ur name weilun???...
nope i m not. -
Wonder of this will turn out to be a SG version of 'You've Got Mail'?Originally posted by p0ppy:eh... mind if i ask? is ur name weilun???... -
never...Originally posted by Spear:Wonder of this will turn out to be a SG version of 'You've Got Mail'? -
thanks god u are not weilun.. haha.. hmm.. tis is the first time i asked u... if someone asked u this question b4... i bet it's bratpig... hahaha... u really sounds like weilun ba... scary... hahaa
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i realize i can read chinese with no problems, but i have headache when i have to read hanyupinyinOriginally posted by xian89:Pei(1) ai(4) wen(2) jing(4) cheng(2) you(3) shu(1)
ji(1) yi(4) jun(1) ling(2) ruo(4) zu(4) xian(2)
shi(4) wen(4) tian(1) ya(2) zai(4) he(2) fang(1)
tian(1) ya(2) he(2) fang(1) he(2) chu(4) zao(3)
anyway your story quite sad leh.
but when if she really 89, quite young leh...
it's such a sad story. eh... you never say why got farewell leh..... izzit becoz u just grad from sec sch? -
well in life there many passerby..some do leave deep impression..but rember she is oni a passerby...
friend look forward...there will b more...to cum... -
Yam Seng to that.Originally posted by zacken99:well in life there many passerby..some do leave deep impression..but rember she is oni a passerby...
friend look forward...there will b more...to cum... -
anyway your story quite sad leh.
but when if she really 89, quite young leh...
Look at the last sentence n U will noe what 89 stand for
it's such a sad story. eh... you never say why got farewell leh..... izzit becoz u just grad from sec sch?
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yeah I noe. "duo qing zi gu kong xu hen."Originally posted by zacken99:well in life there many passerby..some do leave deep impression..but rember she is oni a passerby...
friend look forward...there will b more...to cum... -
thank UOriginally posted by zacken99:well in life there many passerby..some do leave deep impression..but rember she is oni a passerby...
friend look forward...there will b more...to cum... -
Dear xian89,
I'd say what u described is puppy love. I guess puppy love is when you "fall in love" with someone but you really don't know them that well. You fall in love with them because you are either attracted to them physically, mentality or whatever fascinates you. This type of love usually lasts only a couple of weeks. I can't say a time span is accurate, but this love isn't really love at all. I'm sure you have seen in your school on how some of your peers date other girls. They like a girl one second, date them for a good 2-3 weeks (can be a month or more) and then they break up because either they were tired of one another or they broke up over something stupid.
I guess true love is when you would sacrifice anything for your girlfriend. In this state you would not only sacrifice yourself, but you would also except the person in her entire entirety..in other words pimples, bony and all. The concept of cheating isn't there and absolute loyalty is the number one factor. You can never get enough of each other and at times you can even read each other minds. Why don't you observe a bunch of old people and see how they interact.
I bet if you asked them "what would happen if you partner died" there is a good chance they say..I'd die a couple of months later.
Cheers -
yeah noe that long time ago. tat's Y we are juz friends now. the story was written with the feelings I felt for her at that moments. Believe many ppl also have tat crush in their school days.Originally posted by Master -_-:Dear xian89,
I'd say what u described is puppy love. I guess puppy love is when you "fall in love" with someone but you really don't know them that well. You fall in love with them because you are either attracted to them physically, mentality or whatever fascinates you. This type of love usually lasts only a couple of weeks. I can't say a time span is accurate, but this love isn't really love at all. I'm sure you have seen in your school on how some of your peers date other girls. They like a girl one second, date them for a good 2-3 weeks (can be a month or more) and then they break up because either they were tired of one another or they broke up over something stupid.
I guess true love is when you would sacrifice anything for your girlfriend. In this state you would not only sacrifice yourself, but you would also except the person in her entire entirety..in other words pimples, bony and all. The concept of cheating isn't there and absolute loyalty is the number one factor. You can never get enough of each other and at times you can even read each other minds. Why don't you observe a bunch of old people and see how they interact.
I bet if you asked them "what would happen if you partner died" there is a good chance they say..I'd die a couple of months later.
Cheers
I wun say I can forget her entirely, but times heals all wound. I'll juz treat it as a page of Life which many ppl are facing. -
You sound a lot like myself. I've been told many of the same things, and I've been in a situation like that for awhile. Let me share with you what I've learned.Originally posted by xian89:yeah noe that long time ago. tat's Y we are juz friends now. the story was written with the feelings I felt for her at that moments. Believe many ppl also have tat crush in their school days.
I wun say I can forget her entirely, but times heals all wound. I'll juz treat it as a page of Life which many ppl are facing.
Do nice guys finish last? I hope not!
Dating in secondary school is just, well, weird. It's hard to know what to do, how to act, and all those other things.Other people are feeling the same way, although they don't show it. Something that I try to believe is that everything happens for a reason. It's important, if you believe that, to try and keep that in mind and to see the positive, even though you aren't happy with the girl situation at the moment.
The one thing I would tell you NOT to do is to change how you are acting so you are more like those other guys. For one thing, I think the first rule of dating and building relationships is to be yourself. If you do change and start dating someone, how long do you think you will be able to keep that act up? Secondly, everyone in your clique knows how you are and how you act, and if you change now it's going to be very noticeable, and will probably be more of a turn-off than anything else. Lastly, you are who you are, and deep down inside you can't change that. You said you felt uncomfortable with that act, and that is the reason why. It does no good to change who you are for other people. Life has a way of balancing itself out, and I think sooner rather than later things will work out for you.
Cheers -
You sound a lot like myself. I've been told many of the same things, and I've been in a situation like that for awhile. Let me share with you what I've learned.Originally posted by xian89:yeah noe that long time ago. tat's Y we are juz friends now. the story was written with the feelings I felt for her at that moments. Believe many ppl also have tat crush in their school days.
I wun say I can forget her entirely, but times heals all wound. I'll juz treat it as a page of Life which many ppl are facing.
Do nice guys finish last? I hope not! Dating in secondary school is just, well, weird. It's hard to know what to do, how to act, and all those other things.Other people are feeling the same way, although they don't show it. Something that I try to believe is that everything happens for a reason. It's important, if you believe that, to try and keep that in mind and to see the positive, even though you aren't happy with the girl situation at the moment.
The one thing I would tell you NOT to do is to change how you are acting so you are more like those other guys. For one thing, I think the first rule of dating and building relationships is to be yourself. If you do change and start dating someone, how long do you think you will be able to keep that act up? Secondly, everyone in your clique knows how you are and how you act, and if you change now it's going to be very noticeable, and will probably be more of a turn-off than anything else. Lastly, you are who you are, and deep down inside you can't change that. You said you felt uncomfortable with that act, and that is the reason why. It does no good to change who you are for other people. Life has a way of balancing itself out, and I think sooner rather than later things will work out for you.
Cheers -
You sound a lot like myself. I've been told many of the same things, and I've been in a situation like that for awhile. Let me share with you what I've learned.Originally posted by xian89:yeah noe that long time ago. tat's Y we are juz friends now. the story was written with the feelings I felt for her at that moments. Believe many ppl also have tat crush in their school days.
I wun say I can forget her entirely, but times heals all wound. I'll juz treat it as a page of Life which many ppl are facing.
Do nice guys finish last? I hope not! Dating in secondary school is just, well, weird. It's hard to know what to do, how to act, and all those other things.Other people are feeling the same way, although they don't show it. Something that I try to believe is that everything happens for a reason. It's important, if you believe that, to try and keep that in mind and to see the positive, even though you aren't happy with the girl situation at the moment.
The one thing I would tell you NOT to do is to change how you are acting so you are more like those other guys. For one thing, I think the first rule of dating and building relationships is to be yourself. If you do change and start dating someone, how long do you think you will be able to keep that act up? Secondly, everyone in your clique knows how you are and how you act, and if you change now it's going to be very noticeable, and will probably be more of a turn-off than anything else. Lastly, you are who you are, and deep down inside you can't change that. You said you felt uncomfortable with that act, and that is the reason why. It does no good to change who you are for other people. Life has a way of balancing itself out, and I think sooner rather than later things will work out for you.
Cheers -
You sound a lot like myself. I've been told many of the same things, and I've been in a situation like that for awhile. Let me share with you what I've learned.Originally posted by xian89:yeah noe that long time ago. tat's Y we are juz friends now. the story was written with the feelings I felt for her at that moments. Believe many ppl also have tat crush in their school days.
I wun say I can forget her entirely, but times heals all wound. I'll juz treat it as a page of Life which many ppl are facing.
Do nice guys finish last? I hope not! Dating in secondary school is just, well, weird. It's hard to know what to do, how to act, and all those other things.Other people are feeling the same way, although they don't show it. Something that I try to believe is that everything happens for a reason. It's important, if you believe that, to try and keep that in mind and to see the positive, even though you aren't happy with the girl situation at the moment.
The one thing I would tell you NOT to do is to change how you are acting so you are more like those other guys. For one thing, I think the first rule of dating and building relationships is to be yourself. If you do change and start dating someone, how long do you think you will be able to keep that act up? Secondly, everyone in your clique knows how you are and how you act, and if you change now it's going to be very noticeable, and will probably be more of a turn-off than anything else. Lastly, you are who you are, and deep down inside you can't change that. You said you felt uncomfortable with that act, and that is the reason why. It does no good to change who you are for other people. Life has a way of balancing itself out, and I think sooner rather than later things will work out for you.
Cheers -