i purge..............
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from my online diaryland...............
2004-02-27 - 1:58 p.m.
i feel so tired today....doing things that i dun want to....i got no idea why or how things shud be done,not putting myself in the work...the $$$ is okie,in fact some say its good. but i never thought i will do things for Money.no passion at all....getting screwed at from all directions,just feel like giving up.and its one month before i can wash my hands from it all if i decide to go.haizz...i wonder if this will last,if it will be better tmr.i m tired,thats all i know,aint got no life.i thot that only happens when i m in the service industry,but seem to me like here in sg,nobody has time for a life unless u sleep 3 hours a day....or is it jux me?
someone help me put me outta my misery.... -
2004-04-11 - 11:13 a.m.
i'm no longer with you, to you
no longer in you,thru parts of you.
a wound that have since healed,
but
you have erased me with a scar removing cream,
with a memory-erasing disk cleanup function,
nothing reminds,
not even all the hurt and the pain....
i hope you are talking about me, about how it all used to be....
how the pain almost killed you,
how i almost destoryed you....
now i m killing myself,destruction is my only way out..
but i promise u, i will kill you before i kill myself. -
2004-04-14 - 8:12 a.m.
was reading Rollins on the bowl this morning, i still feel his angst,tho' i have lost much of it.a collegue mentioned that i have normalize.normalize? is that such a word? i have been abnormal?unusual?or jux plain weird?this guy doesnt even know me,he has barely know me for 2 months...i think i m pretty normal,ask all my ex-girlfriends, i m jux a normal jerk...muahahahahahaha.
its true i m now sitting in an office from 9-5.its true i m doing decent things to feed myself,but is that even normal?its true i have jet black hair,with strains of white,no more swinging metal pieces on my face,or in my mouth.that is normal?i still do not know what i want,still as bewildered as i was.someone shud tell me how this is normal.
i need a change! -
2004-04-22 - 9:04 a.m.
lost myself 2nd day in a row, this morning while i was on the morning train to work....is this what i want?to live out my live as an ordinary nobody? to be like everybody?
i miss my old days...where everyone was frds.life was much complicated and yet simpler then.days were spent sleeping and nites were easy.drinks flowed freely...i cud be who i wanna be...bitch,lover,enemy,friend,slut,anti-socialist,anachist,anti-people,god,slave,master....i was it all...
back then, my friends watched my back as i watched over theirs.rock and roll all nite as we lived day by day....
how i miss destruction..... -
2004-04-30 - 10:27 a.m.
i cannot
reach the stars for you,
be what u want me to.
reach deep into your heart
lead you out from the dark......
i cannot.........
show you yesterday
keep doing things your way
touch the skies nor move the clouds
stop the rain so our love wont drown......
i can move towards tommorow
hide my tears of sorrow...
wear a mask to cover my frown
wear a smile just like a clown
i have to be strong
have to keep going on
have to live my life anew
have to see myself thru...... -
u do have a flair in poem writing.
purging these writings from your diary may just do you good...
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MODERATOR ?
apa ini?
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congrats!!!!
Originally posted by on tenterhooks: MODERATOR ?
apa ini? -
congrats!!!!Originally posted by on tenterhooks: MODERATOR ?
apa ini? -
flair???the only flair i can do is fire flairing in the bar.kekeOriginally posted by on tenterhooks:u do have a flair in poem writing.
purging these writings from your diary may just do you good...
poem??what poem??its jux gibberish!!!!keke -
Originally posted by on tenterhooks: MODERATOR ?
apa ini?
how can i do any less for my ardent fan??? -
Originally posted by foga:congrats!!!! erm...thanks, for dropping this note to me hor. Though i duno what's happening here
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no need so humble leh...Originally posted by ratinacage:flair???the only flair i can do is fire flairing in the bar.keke
poem??what poem??its jux gibberish!!!!keke -
yea, yea...very funi...very funi...ratty.Originally posted by ratinacage:
how can i do any less for my ardent fan??? 
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talking abt this.. when will i get to see u perform the throwing of bottles??Originally posted by ratinacage:flair???the only flair i can do is fire flairing in the bar.keke
poem??what poem??its jux gibberish!!!!keke
and congrats to on tenterhooks!!
welcome, welcome... -
who what where???Originally posted by on tenterhooks:yea, yea...very funi...very funi...ratty. -
ya, when u got time to come see??Originally posted by coolger03:talking abt this.. when will i get to see u perform the throwing of bottles??
and congrats to on tenterhooks!!
welcome, welcome... -
thanks for the warm welcome, coolger.Originally posted by coolger03:talking abt this.. when will i get to see u perform the throwing of bottles??
and congrats to on tenterhooks!!
welcome, welcome... 
the next time you see ratty and din get to see throwing of bottles, you just throw the bottles towards ratty lar. -
and i'll catch every single one of them....really!!!!!Originally posted by on tenterhooks:thanks for the warm welcome, coolger.
the next time you see ratty and din get to see throwing of bottles, you just throw the bottles towards ratty lar. -
how come Croco not mod??
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becos u never reach 15 pages!!!!muahahahahaOriginally posted by sgboy2004:how come Croco not mod??
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u want to take over?Originally posted by sgboy2004:how come Croco not mod??
whahahhahhaha
tell me! tell me! I will gladly let you be the mod here... -
where? where??Originally posted by ratinacage:ya, when u got time to come see?? -
anywhere lor....during dinner also can....keke.....jux be prepared to sweep broken glass from the floor....Originally posted by coolger03:where? where?? -
u r welcome... kekeke.....Originally posted by on tenterhooks:thanks for the warm welcome, coolger.
the next time you see ratty and din get to see throwing of bottles, you just throw the bottles towards ratty lar.
but, sorry i can't fulfil ur wish of me throwing bottles at ratty as part of ur welcoming performance.. kekeke