Diary
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Dear diary,
I am forever curious about relationship between a guy and a girl. 2 decades of my life & I never dated a single female. Which is why every time I see a couple out there, I get many weird feelings. Envy, jealousy, sour, hurt. I always yearned to find that special someone, someone who can share my happiness, my pain & everything else.
Throughout my life, I have liked different girls on different occasions: 1 childhood friend, 1 from secondary, 1 during polytechnic. But I really don’t have the guts to tell them I am interested in them. I was young, ignorant of what is called “love”. I was unsure what response I would get. Most of all I fear “rejection”…
Every time I see the girl I liked, I would notice what she does, her attire, her language, her every single movement. I couldn’t help it. I really can’t. I can only have a “friendly” chat with her. I don’t dare to tell her, “I like you.” For fear I get rejected & in future it will be embarrassing whenever we meet.
Every time I get to know what she did, where she goes or who she is with, I wished I was there too. Seeing what I missed out, I felt some sort of pain, envy & jealousy in me. This may not be a positive attitude, but I couldnÂ’t help it. I mean, what am I in her eyes? No more then a mere friend. If that is the case, why am I so fussed up?
Many times I tried to suppress this feelings, I tried consulting in my buddy, asking my friends about their relationships with girls, reading books related to this, even tried to keep myself occupied to forget this. No matter what I did, how my buddy gave sound advice, how much information I collected, the feeling keeps appearing.
Those whom I once have feelings for are now gone. I now live life as usual, but I fear such feelings may arise again. I fear I may once again have fancy for a girl and history repeats itself. I can blame no one for this except for myself. I am too suspicious & emotional. I can hardly take things easy as my buddy had advice me to do.
What should I do? What can I do? I don't believe I will be single the whole life, but I am also not confident. Am I really what I described myself, "Ming Fan Ku Xing"? Have I offended "The Lonely Star"? Give me a sign... -
relax /me sayang Senior~~~Originally posted by loneryu00:Dear diary,
I am forever curious about relationship between a guy and a girl. 2 decades of my life & I never dated a single female. Which is why every time I see a couple out there, I get many weird feelings. Envy, jealousy, sour, hurt. I always yearned to find that special someone, someone who can share my happiness, my pain & everything else.
Throughout my life, I have liked different girls on different occasions: 1 childhood friend, 1 from secondary, 1 during polytechnic. But I really don’t have the guts to tell them I am interested in them. I was young, ignorant of what is called “love”. I was unsure what response I would get. Most of all I fear “rejection”…
Every time I see the girl I liked, I would notice what she does, her attire, her language, her every single movement. I couldn’t help it. I really can’t. I can only have a “friendly” chat with her. I don’t dare to tell her, “I like you.” For fear I get rejected & in future it will be embarrassing whenever we meet.
Every time I get to know what she did, where she goes or who she is with, I wished I was there too. Seeing what I missed out, I felt some sort of pain, envy & jealousy in me. This may not be a positive attitude, but I couldnÂ’t help it. I mean, what am I in her eyes? No more then a mere friend. If that is the case, why am I so fussed up?
Many times I tried to suppress this feelings, I tried consulting in my buddy, asking my friends about their relationships with girls, reading books related to this, even tried to keep myself occupied to forget this. No matter what I did, how my buddy gave sound advice, how much information I collected, the feeling keeps appearing.
Those whom I once have feelings for are now gone. I now live life as usual, but I fear such feelings may arise again. I fear I may once again have fancy for a girl and history repeats itself. I can blame no one for this except for myself. I am too suspicious & emotional. I can hardly take things easy as my buddy had advice me to do.
What should I do? What can I do? I don't believe I will be single the whole life, but I am also not confident. Am I really what I described myself, "Ming Fan Ku Xing"? Have I offended "The Lonely Star"? Give me a sign...
Shi ni de pao bu diao, bu shi ni de zuo bu zhao~ -
-______-''''Originally posted by IamAngeline:relax /me sayang Senior~~~
Shi ni de pao bu diao, bu shi ni de zuo bu zhao~
Thanks...
Actually I feel like "Si Diao", "Xiang Ku, Dan Ku Bu Zhao"...... -
Dun despair, there's always hope.
And u still have us frens.. -
Originally posted by loneryu00:-______-''''
Thanks...
Actually I feel like "Si Diao", "Xiang Ku, Dan Ku Bu Zhao"......
dun worry anything still got me ur Junior~~~ -
Thanks. But eh... forgot to tell U ppl... dat 1 I wrote was 1 of my feelings I had yrs ago... now eh... dunno...
