A day in the mind of a gal like me...
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Dear Diarina
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It was raining when I walked home today... Not really, a rain, just a slight drizzle, but it felt so, so good... It's been so long since I've felt the rain, winds and myself in the rain...
This year I have been cutting classes, until I feel as if there were no use for me to attend any lessons anymore, why for go? However, the guilt in me runs deep and surfaces often... Not that I didn't skip anyway...
I felt a sense of comfort and of finding a long lost friend as I walked in the rain... Only thing is, the drizzle was so small, I did not really quite felt much of it at all... I craved for the days I'd walk home in the midst of a thunderstorm... The rain around me, the wind's melodies, and the storm's jazzy music... The comfort, the true sense of being, I crave for the rain...
Others may see rain as drowning the world with shades of grey, I see the rain as a true reflection of life, each precious teardrop from heaven is a world of its own... It always smell so good during and after rainstorms...
I love the rain~ I love it today~
I missed the heavy heavy jazzy rains~
I wonder when I can see it again~
soon, pls let it be soon...
I have my finals next week... I feel really stressed... Stressed not because of the test, but because I practically do not know anything about the subjects, but don't seem to care...
What the heck? I just feel as if... like... if my life is just snatched away from me in this moment, I would gladly watch it go, and wave goodbye to it... duh~
I'm insane~ I think I'll go back to bed... tired again, I just woke up a few hrs ago... *~* maybe I'll study tml, maybe i'll even pass... I just don't seem to care anymore...
Counting down to Beltane O.S
May 6th, 6.00am
(Sun in Taurus, 15 deg)
Lurve'
En' -
Diarina,
I managed to study today... One page down, several more chapters to go... Well, at least I studied, that have to count for something right...? On the bright side, I have one less page to go...
I woke up to sunshine today... Looking out the window to see... Green. It was beautiful, from my place, I can see the IMM building, the back of it anyway And there is this path you can take to walk there. When I stared out of the window, the first thing that caught my attention was the grass and the tree. Although I don't have nature right beneath my nose. Or window. Whatever. For a moment today, it felt as if I do have the nature sprites very very close to me... and I felt... free!
Tonight, I'll try to sleep early, maybe tomorrow, I will have the mood to study too, and probably, most hopefully, I will pass
Counting down to holistic fair
one more day to go...
Beltane O.S in 3 days time
Lurve'
En' -
Diarina...
I didn't study at all today... No mood, doubt that even if I studied, I'll remember anything Oh well...
Having a terrible headache... Feeling super-stressed...
Think I'm going to bed...
Nite nitez diarina...
Counting down to Beltane O.S
in 2 days time
Holistic fair
tml evening
Lurve'
En' -
Oei? U live in Jurong har? Muz study... find a fren or a gry U can study wif... motivating 1 U noe?
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What i am going thru ... is exactly like en ..
i have been doing something that i hate for the past 3 years. I have been attending classes that i find it meaningless. I don't need this diploma to live, to survive with. I said that because i have my plans for my future, i thought about what i am going to do. I live to work, i don't wanna work to live. At the end of the path, when i am going into the coffin, i know that i have live life to the fullest...
Sometimes when i see my classmate working so hard for their examination, copying notes in the lectures, tutorial. I asked them. What do u wanna do in future?
Almost all of them said don't know. Just finish this course then say. By that time, its abit late.
And, when i told them i wanna quit school,
They give funny replies. They say
"At least, get yourself a diploma! "
For What ?
To show them to my family? my friends?
They themselves have no idea what they are going to do in future, thats why they need this diploma to guide them, lead them into their careers. I don't, because i have an idea, a dream.
En,
whatever decisions u make now will be very important. If you know what lies ahead of you, then go for whatever you think its right.
just my 2 cents worth... -
Ppl... I've gone thru wat U ppl now goin... finding study a drag, ESPECIALLY when its not wat U like OR want... But its part & parcel of life... its only a road we ALL have to go... those inevitable or BO PIAN things... once U've finish dis, THEN U ppl can decide wat U wan... coz all will be OLD enuf to tink & decide.
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get out before it's too late.Originally posted by Transmission:What i am going thru ... is exactly like en ..
i have been doing something that i hate for the past 3 years. I have been attending classes that i find it meaningless. I don't need this diploma to live, to survive with. I said that because i have my plans for my future, i thought about what i am going to do. I live to work, i don't wanna work to live. At the end of the path, when i am going into the coffin, i know that i have live life to the fullest...
Sometimes when i see my classmate working so hard for their examination, copying notes in the lectures, tutorial. I asked them. What do u wanna do in future?
Almost all of them said don't know. Just finish this course then say. By that time, its abit late.
And, when i told them i wanna quit school,
They give funny replies. They say
"At least, get yourself a diploma! "
For What ?
To show them to my family? my friends?
They themselves have no idea what they are going to do in future, thats why they need this diploma to guide them, lead them into their careers. I don't, because i have an idea, a dream.
En,
whatever decisions u make now will be very important. If you know what lies ahead of you, then go for whatever you think its right.
just my 2 cents worth... -
Life is always like that. Forever full of paradox.
Juz when u think that u know something, something else will come in and prove u wrong.
Then when u struggle thru, pick up the pieces, learn from ur previous mistake, and think that u know everything again...
Yet another incident will come right in and blog u down again.
This phenomena is juz life lar. Bo pian one.
Juz look at the trees when u are stress lor, En. -
Originally posted by Transmission:What i am going thru ... is exactly like en ..
En,
whatever decisions u make now will be very important. If you know what lies ahead of you, then go for whatever you think its right.
just my 2 cents worth...
Thankx for ur two cents
I'm taking it -
Originally posted by nismoS132:get out before it's too late.
I'm bonded
so tied for the next few years...
at least it's a safety net
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trees ar?Originally posted by Spear:Life is always like that. Forever full of paradox.
Juz when u think that u know something, something else will come in and prove u wrong.
Then when u struggle thru, pick up the pieces, learn from ur previous mistake, and think that u know everything again...
Yet another incident will come right in and blog u down again.
This phenomena is juz life lar. Bo pian one.
Juz look at the trees when u are stress lor, En.
looking...
and also at the rain
recently ard 3-4+ in the am got pretty lightening shows
but the insomnia feeling not very nice lor -
Originally posted by En':
I'm bonded
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orh nothing larOriginally posted by nismoS132:
just sign a bond that states I have to complete my course
and work for 3 yrs after graduation
and should I break bond or happen to die
pay back 30k + or - a lil lor
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Originally posted by En':
orh nothing lar
just sign a bond that states I have to complete my course
and work for 3 yrs after graduation
and should I break bond or happen to die
pay back 30k + or - a lil lor 
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Originally posted by nismoS132: Welcome to reality
on the bright side, when I complete the bond, I'll never lack for the want of a job -
Hmmm....
what are u studying ?
bond for 3 years ...
foreign student ?
from iraq ?
hahaha -
U dun need sleep one ar...?Originally posted by Transmission:Hmmm....
what are u studying ?
bond for 3 years ...
foreign student ?
from iraq ?
hahaha
me studying a very dry, and boring (to me, at least) subject
Last I check, pretty sure I was branded local product...
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Diarina,
I think I'm in trouble, log off ard midnight, toss and turn until now...
Can't sleep
This time, chamomile tea doesn't work...
Help~
Sleepless'
En' -
Sleep, when u have the need to sleep. ..
Not tired, dun have to sleep ...
but ..
now abit sleepy... but i lazy to sleep ... -
wat about very tired but can't sleep?Originally posted by Transmission:Sleep, when u have the need to sleep. ..
Not tired, dun have to sleep ...
but ..
now abit sleepy... but i lazy to sleep ...
lazy to sleep...?
pei fu! pei fu!
can sleep dun want to sleep...
dun realise the bliss you are in -
sleep too much let my father nag ...so i lazy
lazy to sleep also let u all nag ....
its a cycle ...and i am enjoying it -
Originally posted by Transmission:sleep too much let my father nag ...so i lazy
lazy to sleep also let u all nag ....
its a cycle ...and i am enjoying it
Poor thing you!
Nvm, now I nag at u lor
I'm good at it!
Learned from the best -
/me falls asleep liaoz...
ZZZzzzzz .z.z ..z..z...................
seeya in dreamland~ -
Yeah, rub in the salt...Originally posted by Transmission:/me falls asleep liaoz...
ZZZzzzzz .z.z ..z..z...................
seeya in dreamland~
Nite nitez, and sleep tight -
Dear Diarina ,
I made breakfast today Cheese omelette and hotdogs
Well, I am a teenager but at least I'm not having snickers and mars bars for breakfast Actually I got the chance to mess up the kitchen coz' my parents went out And for the first time since I started making cheese omelette, it actually looked like an omelette. I remember my last few pathetic attempts that ended up looking like scrambled eggs Well, in my defense, some people are borned to live in the kitchen, some are borned to want to live in the kitchen, and some are borned to be away from the kitchen... I belong to the 2nd
Speaking of natural born talents, I also wish I have a green thumb... The last time I planted sage, the seedlings died on me I think is because I over-watered Whatever. Anyway, I still have the egg shell from the omelette, think I'll plant the seeds again, in the shell, then just plop the whole darn thing into my pot... Well, at least I recycled... Gotta be better than chucking the eggshell into the bin... right?
And the omelette taste pretty good Except next time, I'm adding more cheese Too bad I ran out of lemons though, or I'd have made iced lemon tea too... hmmm... Ah well, nothing's perfect... At least I'm not hungry anymore
Counting down to holistic fair
few more hours to go...
Counting down to Beltane O.S
2 more days
Lurve'
En' -
Lovely weather nowadays
Really love the rainy days as much as u do, bet u enjoy the scenery from the boarding platform of Jurong East MRT Station juz as much i reckon....? The side tt faces ...haha....ur IMM Building, and a greenery field