It's not easy to just let go,
I feel like I'm falling, but I don't hit the ground
with the weight of my soul pulling me down
and I look at all of them looking at me, pointing, laughing, reading the manuals and scripts about my mediocre life.
do you also think that this is absurd?
yes?
I know i sound like a guy that's going to die later in the night
I'm sorry for putting my worries on you readers,
but I have to let some of my worries on someone,
because the acid is beginning to churn at my pale skin that has done nothing for me but bring more anguish and pain
maybe i just need someone to tell me
"Shhhhhhhh,
ittle boy ,strange boy ,sick boy ,god's toy
Just close your eyes,
Try one more time
And everything
Everything, will be ok...."
Looking back at all the great memories,
my heart breaks further beyond repair,
as I realise that you're not coming back
part of me tells me to move o, another part of me's telling me she'll be back
Will you miss me if I died
Will you kiss me if I cried
Will you hold me tight
Will you squeeze my hand
As my last breath left me
Will you miss me in the middle of the night
Cause im not there by your side
Will you cry on my grave
Will you leave flowers in summer
Will you cry when someone speaks my name
Will you put my picture in a frame
Will you miss me if I died?
Would you?
its too hard
to just move on
i cant believe
its really gone
I'm trying not to let is show
there's and empty space
in my soul
i cant let you go
i just don't know,
if i can pull through
while having no place to turn
I'll wait a lifetime
if that's what it Will take
for you to realize this.
For your love to re-awake
I've been waiting for you
to finally meet me half way
my patience is slowly corrupted
i will let you go one day
but not anytime soon
these illusions seem so real,
hypnotize by the moon
could you possibly know
how i feel?
I feel empty.
Completely empty.
The kind of empty where you want to scream at the top of your lungs until your throat hurts.
Where you want to yell and screech until you spit everywhere.
Where you want to cry until your eyes sting, are red and puffy, and you feel that you couldnÂ’t possibly cry anymore.
The kind of empty that after you have done all these things, leaves you alone.
Desolate. Insecure.
IÂ’m sorry I love you.
And IÂ’m sorry I still do.
But maybe someday
IÂ’ll learn to get over you.....
I know it will be easier
once I get over you
but there's that giant barrier
that I must first break through
And each time I try to push hard
to get over the crest of that wave
I find myself back on the shore
with more chains in being your slave
I know nights would be less lonely
without your ghost in my bed
but first I'd have to chase all traces
of missing you from my head
And each time I try to lock them out
and keep them out of my brain
I find them all tearing their way back in
and I\'m just a bit more insane
I know my heart would be less broken
if I just let you bleed your way out
but I can't stand the thought of letting you go
and I let myself be overcome by doubt
And each time I try to let you drain
to bring myself to say Goodbye
I find it just lets more of you in
I'm getting stronger a little more every day
just waiting as the pain slowly fades away
and I remember living in the numbness
underneath the shadows
trying to dull the pain
wanting to breathe again
It's so hard to move on
now that you're so gone
and it use to be so hard to concentrate.
Used to be stuck in a loneliness that you'll never know.
I was holding on so very tight
trying to keep the dream of us close.
I thought the pain would kill me
God, I hate to be alone
but you never know who may come along.
I use to try and suffocate those feelings of despair
But now I try to embrace them
knowing that they soon won't be there.
I'm getting stronger with each passing day
which is why I'm writing this poem today
Just thought you'd like to know that now I'm letting you go...
I miss you so much I don't know waht to say......
I miss holding you close, lying on what used to be our bed ,snugged up, just the two of us.
i miss you so much.......
