Gulity Love
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Hi everyone, How do you feel when u accidently hurt someone that is truly like u but you thought he was jus trying to play a fool with your heart.
I regreted in my actions...
Heres the story goes, Last Feb that was somewhere new yr , one of my family members admitted to the hospital and my whole family was very worried about him and many unlucky things keep happening to me . Then comes this student nurse who looks is normal and i know hes much younger than me. I didnt thought much about him as he is rather quiet at his work. Well , his impression to me was like normal nurse doing his duty. He takes gd care of my sick family member.
I was very grateful of what he done but i didnt have any chance to thank him. Then the followng week. One of my family member discharge. We left the hospital as the days goes by , i went to surf my internet ... i was to shocked to know that the caring nurse found me in friendster he didnt know my name or even email add by using a search of 1081.. he found me . i was happy and thought we can be friends since fate has come. Then we chatted on the net and we decided to meet up for coffee the very next day. When we met up , he confessed his feelings for me and i was totally in shocked didnt kknow what to say or do . I told him that was too fast .. he tld me that is ok he can wait and saying that his feelings will always be the same til the end. I was somehow touch by his sincere but my feelings was totally unsure. He was just too young ( 2yrs younger ) for me and what i was looking for is someone with stable career and ready to move to long term. My mind was totally mind ...
As days goes by ( 5 days ) later, he suddenly sms me stating that he been strugglling with his feeling and wish to remain as friends . I was shocked in his behaviour . How come he wrote such things ? Is he playing a fool ? what is he up to ? I couldnt accept it and very angry with it. i tried calling him and he didnt pick up only avoids my calls.. He says dun call him anymore and he wanna hid from me. I did nothing to make him feel like hidding and i really puzzled in his actions. I cried badly and i told my friend abt wat happen . Then My friend advised me to teach him a lesson on not to play people feeling . I didnt thought of the consequence and went on with it. I didnt know it could cause his entire future hanging up and i regreted. We went to sent an email regarding his work and indeed he got what he have .. a warning letter from sch . And he was told not to contact me anymore or else he be kick out. I was shocked and he told me the truth over the net that he was actually not playing out my feelings he do like me but he still loves his ex gf. and he was shocked on my actions too and decided to stop everything he said that now i have cause his future hanging and he want me to let go of him. I cried and saying sorry that i cause him misery . He kept saying is ok he know y i did that .
the next morning , i quickly callup all the agencies to drop the matter on him and let him continue his future . The whole matter is now cleared and i told him that i have managed to save his future for him and everything is over. He said to me ok. Know that he is still angry with me on this but he didnt express it out. i decided to leave him alone thought we said we remain as friends but knowing that the crack is there is very hard to forget.
That nite i saw him online i wanted to talk to him but is was a very cold conversations and my tears strat dropping and i told him how sorry i was but he kept saying is ok and he didnt blame me. After this incident i start to be very quiet and also stay away from friends. I kept my self unconactable . I was worried abt him and keep thinking abt him. But i know is useless when one starts to be cold .. I cried til i fall sick . Im totally regerted in my wrong doings and also hope he could really be happy now since things is over.
I was so glad that when were together i managed to make a guy face from frown to happy. I missed those times though is very short with him . Especially when we 1st chat on line ....
Sighz.. i missed him alot . -
So,u had feelings for him too?
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Congrats on ur virgin post. Actually u don't have to cry so much. getting a warning won't affect his future. He's only a nurse, not some sort of high ranking official where reputation is very impt. Guys mean it when they say it's ok. He won't hate you. guys are not so narrow minded.
You cry becoz u miss him, not becoz ur guilty. -
I dun even know myself having feelings for him . Im so worried abt his future being ruin by my hands.. and prety upset by his coldness towards me ..
wat should i do ? let him know i missed him and worried abt him ? -
stupid friend spoil the beautiful story
kaypo! -
Today i called him wanted to talk to him but he sounded like hes fully recovered from love and continue withhis life without me. I cried over the phone when he say this to me that we r still friends and always will be and stop crying already. I was hurt and i told him i missed him badly . He said we will meet up one day when i know how to be happy again . I know is all comfort words .. I know we can turn back time anymore .. I begin to realise myself fallen for him deep when i start to lose him . Im seems to be forgotten by him ...
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actuali.. how old are u? it's quite surprising u can fall so deeply when you 2 really met outside once and he told u he likes u. Somehow im so jealous of the guy. how i wish girls outside are like u.
Seiously, if u can easily fall for someone who say 'i like u', u will fall again for another guy who says the same thing to u. -
He told me that he had a love at 1st sight and has a special feelings for me. I was only realising myself having such feelings only when i lose him...
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leave him alone now, that's all i will say.
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u crazy ahh.. warning letter for nursing is actually a big thing.. he might be able to fail his attachment module cause of it. fail attachment module = gg liao..Originally posted by necrolyt3:Congrats on ur virgin post. Actually u don't have to cry so much. getting a warning won't affect his future. He's only a nurse, not some sort of high ranking official where reputation is very impt. Guys mean it when they say it's ok. He won't hate you. guys are not so narrow minded.
You cry becoz u miss him, not becoz ur guilty.
difficult to find work outside + if he want to get sponsorship they will look at this kind of things.
to ts: the thing u did is actually abit harsh.. even if u want to play his feelings, should have play directly at him. but yea, guys are narrow minded.
He frm nyp? -
I only said it was not very serious as if his future will get hanged. if a warning letter can so easily destroy a future, people can easily make an empty complaint and shoot a letter down. If he fails, it simply means he is not up to it.Originally posted by ifish:u crazy ahh.. warning letter for nursing is actually a big thing.. he might be able to fail his attachment module cause of it. fail attachment module = gg liao..
difficult to find work outside + if he want to get sponsorship they will look at this kind of things.
to ts: the thing u did is actually abit harsh.. even if u want to play his feelings, should have play directly at him. but yea, guys are narrow minded.
He frm nyp?
And yea.. guys who are narrow minded are not guys. love at 1st sight?? you actually believe him? I hate guys who dun mean what they say. It's becoz of guys like him that guys in the world are branded as scoundrels. The 1 thing he did right is putting a stop to it -
usually, a pt wont complain about a student. they will usually complain about the nurses in general.. when a student get complain, esp directly to the school, it mean the student have not perform up to par..Originally posted by necrolyt3:I only said it was not very serious as if his future will get hanged. if a warning letter can so easily destroy a future, people can easily make an empty complaint and shoot a letter down. If he fails, it simply means he is not up to it.
And yea.. guys who are narrow minded are not guys. love at 1st sight?? you actually believe him? I hate guys who dun mean what they say. It's becoz of guys like him that guys in the world are branded as scoundrels. The 1 thing he did right is putting a stop to it
Its possible for a person to fail the attachment with just a complain. the lecturer could mark a student as unsafe practice.
afterall, a pt is treated physically, mentally and psychologically -
i guess for a r/s to maintain communication is still the key. communication break down here n there will create un-needed misunderstandings... it can turn a happy r/s to a heart-broken r/s... i guess it better to leave him alone for awhile while both of u sort out your feelings... its nvr easy to let go but when time u gotta let go, u have to... can't offer much cos i'm a r/s failure myself.
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Well thks for all the remarks and comments.. i decided to leave this matter alone and not touching it anymore. cause the more i touch this matter i know i wont be able to forget him. Anyway, i spoke to the sch last wk as stated that to drop the whole matter. whether what the decision make by the sch is now up to em. I heard from him that everything is now back to normal for him .. then it should be ok for him liao .. I know i have to let go and forget him totally.. its hurts to do that but what to do since he have already forgotten it so fast .. only a few days .. sighz